finding satisfaction in Him....

There is always the pressure, you know, the pressure of fitting in & the necessity to look a certain way, and follow the hottest trends.  Happiness now is linked to being a certain pant size, and joy has become the product of being accepted by everyone around you.

I have been struggling with this image deal for a while now.  Four yrs into marriage, and two babies later, my body is not the same, I have gone up in pant & shirt size, and I am constantly faced with the same issue in my heart, the fight to fit in and look as good as others, and the longing to feel beautiful.

Why does it have to be this way?  Why must my happiness be based upon looks? or fashion? or whether I have the best clothes in my closet??

I have been thinking a lot about life, about God, searching my heart and asking myself...What is my source of Joy, and in who do I find my joy in?  I have come to this conclusion....I was made for Jesus, I was made to be satisfied by Him and not by what this culture thinks my satisfaction will come from.  There is Something so much bigger, and Someone so much greater then being so caught up with societies standards.  Don't get me wrong, I love feeling beautiful and confident, but where is the source of that confidence being pulled from? Is it Jesus, is it who He says I am or is it the size 6 pants I have been dying to fit back into!!

We were all created with this longing for beauty, with this longing for more, for the next big thing.   I'm constantly giving the longings of my heart over to other ideas, and letting material things be the things that give my life happiness & meaning...when in reality, the beauty is the one of our Lord, the longing is to long for Him and the next big thing, are all the mysteries He has to share with us.

What does it really look like to set my eyes on things above, what does it really look like to seek first the Kingdom of heaven, what does it really feel like to lay up my treasures in heaven and how does it feel to really, 100% be satisfied in Jesus Christ....Oh, how I desire to live for one thing and one thing alone, to meet Jesus! That as long as I have him, everything that this world has to offer is NOTHING.  Why not be happy and content with just knowing God, with searching Him out and living a life of simplicity that God and His truths would have preeminence in my life.

One of my bestest momma friends Nicole and I have been sharing our hearts on finding our confidence and joy in other things but Jesus! She wrote a post as well so go check her out over at The Chronicles of a stay at home mom;)